[00:00.32] Like man was saying, bruv [00:02.47] Many nights man prayed, bruv [00:06.69] Somewhere someone's gonna help me through this, man [00:11.30] Someone is gonna help bring me out of this shit, y'know? [00:15.19] Time, it took a while for man to recognise, boy, who you were gonna send [00:24.73] And you know what? Mans, I'm very proud [00:27.93] I'm very happy to see it's one of my own init, y'know? [00:31.59] And boy, I know none of this is easy, y'know? [00:36.96] I'm just proud to be, to be witnessing what's going on, man, y'know? [00:43.21] [00:49.14] Look [00:50.61] I don't know where to start [00:53.60] But I just done my first psychodrama [00:56.63] And I hope the world hears my craft [00:58.89] I'm excited man, I pray you get to hear my craft [01:01.56] From our childhood, our mother didn't hear me laugh [01:04.52] I'm presenting you the future, I don't fear my past [01:07.22] I ain't got a tattoo anywhere near my arms [01:10.03] But best believe on my sleeves is where I wear my heart [01:12.10] Do you know how easy it is to be a sinner? [01:15.48] How many losses you need before you can be a winner? [01:18.26] Reason with a criminal that needs to eat a dinner [01:21.14] Is it survival of the fittest or is he a killer? [01:24.21] Losing dad was big, losing you was even bigger [01:26.65] Never had a father and I needed you to be the figure [01:29.70] We're forgetting that we had a brother that was even bigger [01:32.58] We were figures just tryna figure out who could be a figure [01:37.07] My brothers never spoke to each other when I was growing up [01:41.29] I remember tryna to build a bridge, I wasn't old enough [01:43.75] I pray I hold the game for as long as you man can hold a grudge [01:47.08] Years went by, I know it's fucked [01:48.53] I had to hold it up for mummy on my own [01:50.56] I know it's tough, I got the coldest blood [01:52.57] I remember when you got sentenced and I was throwing up [01:55.12] It's like they took a piece of my freedom when I had opened up [01:58.35] I just lost the only fucking person that I idolised [02:00.95] For my entire life, I copied you down to the finest line [02:03.83] Bro, I got a flame in my mind I'm trying to firefight [02:06.68] The pill I had to swallow wasn't bitter, it was cyanide [02:09.54] I learn over time, separation issues I describe [02:12.50] Are probably the reasons that I struggle feeling anything [02:15.23] I ain't got a vision of a marriage or a wedding ring [02:18.04] It's world domination in music or it ain't anything [02:20.88] I'm obsessed, focused on the objective [02:23.66] Tell a don yes, disagree, I object [02:25.94] Used to treat my women like an object [02:28.14] Girls want a monster, come and see I'm the Loch Ness [02:31.08] Settle for a lot less [02:32.35] I just hope you're proud of me brother, it's been a long stretch [02:35.46] You're my hero and prior to this [02:37.87] I was living on the edge like a house on a cliff [02:40.53] But now I'm living in the present like my house was a gift [02:43.31] I'm going psycho, this scene's mine bro [02:46.11] Rappers wanna diss me, it's only online though [02:48.85] They put the mic and soft in the micro [02:51.57] Soft? Not I, bro [02:53.13] Swimming's the only time I can lie though [02:55.43] And lemme be genuine [02:56.74] Anybody rich my age is American, kicking ball or inherited [03:00.51] It only makes sense I'm independent [03:02.88] Knowing everything it happened, how I'm telling it [03:05.32] You niggas aren't getting it [03:06.64] I'm coming from the struggle, I survived and I'm still here [03:09.54] Used to bump trains that's two ways, I don't feel fear [03:12.59] I don't know trust, I know a tight bond will tear [03:15.25] Like a good wig, I can't tell you if it's real here [03:18.20] I'm from south London, brother, people getting killed here [03:20.94] You can make a mill' but you can lose it if you're still here [03:23.89] I lost over 30 grand to family, I'm still here [03:26.58] The word don't appeal to me, you steal from me, I'm still here [03:29.49] Bro, I wasn't made for this [03:30.98] I don't get a break, but I'm aware of what breaking is [03:33.70] I wish you could take a hint as well as you can take the piss [03:36.63] I don't even speak to our brother, man, I just pray for him [03:39.58] It's never too late for him [03:40.86] Life is at it's craziest, walls started caving in [03:43.77] All the things I've seen would turn a theist, atheist [03:46.72] I didn't get 99 marks in English, I was faking it [03:49.45] I got 98 'cause I don't know what a vacation is [03:55.13] If you saw God, what would you say to him? [03:58.57] If given the chance, would you have taken it? [04:01.31] If you could rewind time, what would you change in it? [04:04.36] Do you believe in what an angel is? [04:07.08] Furthermore, do you believe in what the devil is? [04:09.53] Do you believe that I can illustrate what Streatham is [04:12.30] Then break the fourth wall and base Lesley on my relatives? [04:15.45] I'm grateful for my life because I aimed for this [04:18.17] Every bad moment every single fucking day of this [04:20.92] People looking at me, that's what fame can bring [04:23.39] But to understand the stairs, you take steps then retrace the shit [04:27.07] I tell my circle, the future's ours, we're shaping it [04:29.70] The past is just the reason I had came to this [04:34.72] I thank God for the pain because it made me this [04:39.63] [04:50.60] I don't know if you remember those days, bruv [04:53.22] In them days, there was one night in particular, bruv [04:55.10] Came home and for some reason, man put on a beat [05:00.77] We were just in the front room, freestyling, bar for bar [05:06.03] I don't even know how old you was these times, bruv [05:07.84] Probably about, hmm, ten? Ten, nine? [05:14.15] Yeah, man, if I think about it now, think about the transition [05:19.30] Them days there, you had no bars [05:28.22] But to see the stuff you're doing today, proper man, you know I mean that [05:34.45] Thinking man's definitely blessed to see how the whole ting's come together [05:40.20] From times when I think it was 'JKYL+HYD' man, you played man that one there [05:46.75] Man was thinking, "Yo, this one here is a banger", bruv [05:51.73] I remember when I heard that one live on the airwaves [05:57.18] For the first time bruv, we was pumping it [06:01.21] Man come to my door was like, "Rah man, that's a bit loud you know?" [06:06.33] I'm like, "Fam, that's my brudda" [06:09.22] He was like, "Yeah?" [06:13.54] And you know, on your birthday, man sent you a little card [06:19.62] And it begins [06:21.35] "Jesse made seven of his sons pass before Samuel [06:25.08] But Samuel said to him, "The Lord has not chosen these" [06:29.60] So he asked Jesse, "Are these all the sons you have?" [06:33.38] "There is still the youngest," Jesse answered, "but he's tending the sheep" [06:37.69] Samuel said, "Send for him, we will not sit down to eat until he arrives" [06:42.76] So he sent and had him brought in [06:45.64] He was ruddy, with a fine appearance and handsome features [06:49.49] And then the Lord said, "Rise and anoint him, he's the one" [06:54.15] Bro, you know what that means? [06:57.92] Say no more man [07:00.19]